28 January 2007
I love my Boyfriend!
Have I ever mentioned tt the only reason I keep boyfriends is for them to help me fix my blog lay out?
21 January 2007
Home
The past 2 weeks have been a trial. I hardly felt homesick in my first term. But ever since I have been back from Singapore, I have been missing home.
Home. It sounds cliche but I really feel that home is where your family and friends are. If everyone who matters to me shift here with me, I wouldn't care where I am. I wouldn't be feeling what I am feeling now. I always appreciate my friends and cherish them. But I didn't know just how big a role my friends play in my world until I am away. So big a role that I wish I am not living through this lesson. I would rather not learn.
Home. That's where I know I have lived and made a difference. I know what is missing in my current life. I haven't made much difference to others, to my surroundings. Gab C. did say that I should have no doubt that I made a difference, no matter how small. But I am still not satisfied. I feel like I have not contributed back to the society. I don't useful at the moment, and that's what matters ultimately. I can do a lot of stuff, but it's the impact that matters. I need to reprioritise (how do u spell??) my values in life.
Yep! And it's time to start thinking of CNY. That would be a good turning point:)
Home. It sounds cliche but I really feel that home is where your family and friends are. If everyone who matters to me shift here with me, I wouldn't care where I am. I wouldn't be feeling what I am feeling now. I always appreciate my friends and cherish them. But I didn't know just how big a role my friends play in my world until I am away. So big a role that I wish I am not living through this lesson. I would rather not learn.
Home. That's where I know I have lived and made a difference. I know what is missing in my current life. I haven't made much difference to others, to my surroundings. Gab C. did say that I should have no doubt that I made a difference, no matter how small. But I am still not satisfied. I feel like I have not contributed back to the society. I don't useful at the moment, and that's what matters ultimately. I can do a lot of stuff, but it's the impact that matters. I need to reprioritise (how do u spell??) my values in life.
Yep! And it's time to start thinking of CNY. That would be a good turning point:)
04 January 2007
Good Bye For Now
How sad this is… 2 entries ago, I was raving about how good it feels to be back. And now, it’s time to say good- bye. I didn’t feel this sad the first time I left Singapore, despite thinking that it was a 9month long trip at that time. This time round, I am clinging on to every minute before I leave, despite it being less than 7 more months before I return.
I had been warned against coming back for my first winter, since it breaks the momentum of getting used to being away from home. When I came back here, I thought how untrue those statements were. I thought that everyone should come back, because it would make you realise how much you love Singapore. Now that I am leaving, I finally understand what the seniors are talking about. Separating has never been harder. In the first separation, at least there is the adrenaline from going into the unknown to distract me. Now, the feelings of homesickness is finally hitting me full-on. WHEN I AM IN SINGAPORE!!
Don’t get me wrong. I don’t regret coming back. If there’s anything that I have accomplished, that is to reinforce my relationship with TE. I think this period of time has been the most intensive period of our relationship so far. I have never felt closer with TE and have never known him better. And this is what makes separation the hardest. How do females in the past, in the present, in the region, in the far west let their loved ones go off to war, never knowing when and whether they would return; when Me here can’t even let go for 7 months?
My new New Year Resolution: Live 2007 with strength and faith.
I had been warned against coming back for my first winter, since it breaks the momentum of getting used to being away from home. When I came back here, I thought how untrue those statements were. I thought that everyone should come back, because it would make you realise how much you love Singapore. Now that I am leaving, I finally understand what the seniors are talking about. Separating has never been harder. In the first separation, at least there is the adrenaline from going into the unknown to distract me. Now, the feelings of homesickness is finally hitting me full-on. WHEN I AM IN SINGAPORE!!
Don’t get me wrong. I don’t regret coming back. If there’s anything that I have accomplished, that is to reinforce my relationship with TE. I think this period of time has been the most intensive period of our relationship so far. I have never felt closer with TE and have never known him better. And this is what makes separation the hardest. How do females in the past, in the present, in the region, in the far west let their loved ones go off to war, never knowing when and whether they would return; when Me here can’t even let go for 7 months?
My new New Year Resolution: Live 2007 with strength and faith.
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